Ok i'm back... finally i've found some time and could overflow some thoughts on computer... enjoy...


inspired by Tool

My shadow's Shedding skin
and I've been picking scabs again.

I'm down digging through my old muscles
looking for a clue.

I've been crawling on my belly
clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own confused
and insecure delusions
for a piece to cross me over
or a word
to guide me in.

I wanna feel the changes coming down.
I wanna know
what I've been hiding in my shadow.

Change is coming through my shadow.
My shadow's shedding skin
I've been picking my scabs again.

I've been crawling on my belly
clearing out what could've been
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
and insecure delusions.

I wanna feel the change consume me,
feel the outside
turning in.
I wanna feel the metamorphosis
and cleansing
I've endured within my shadow.

Change is coming.

Now is my time.

Listen to my muscle memory.
Contemplate what I've been clinging to.

Forty-six and two ahead of me.

I choose to live
and to grow,
take and give and to move,
learn and love and to cry,
kill and die
and to be paranoid and to lie,
hate and fear
and to do what it takes to move through.

I choose to live and to lie,
kill and give and to die,
learn and love
and to do what it takes
to step through.

See my shadow changing,
stretching up and over me

soften this old armor.
hoping I can clear the way
by stepping through my shadow,
coming out the other side.

Step into the shadow.

Forty six and two are just ahead of me.